I Can't Unlove You

3/31/2006

3/31/2006 07:03:00 PM

today. first had maths. that test i got 4/10. forgot all the methods alr. then pe. run 5 rounds. pe is boring la. then mother tongue. then recess. then science. then dnt. our car is almost done. left vacuum and fixing all the parts together. haha. name it star star xiao. then science again. then school over. went to rivervale mall with cao shuang. ate at long john's. then went back for angklung. early dismissal. then after that went home. watched yu le bai fen bai. haha. do you read the subtitles first or do you see the images first? i read the subtitiles first, but somehow able to see the images above. haha.

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3/29/2006

3/29/2006 09:52:00 PM

today. first was don't know what period. forgot alr. isit maths? aiya. then mother tongue, then english. mother tongue. wahh. super bored. their teaching was.. okay nevermind. but not all the people's fault la, only some made it worse. then english nothing really happened. then recess. oh actually i borrowed money from jieli, cynthia and maybe iris. but i decided not to buy it first, weekends then buy. so yar, returning tomoorw. then this week i'm only left with $6 okay. hais. then after recess is maths again. wah can die. then english ist? dunno. but after english is history. and i got a super long name now la. pig god name one. haha. history. mdm sharidah ask us to write down about her lessons like what can be improved like that. wah she like so sad like that. keep trying to make the lesson more interesting. but, but.. her jokes are more and more funny! haha. i was laughing okay. then behind swathika was birping la. haha. okay, nvm. then after school went rivervale mall eat. kfc. i don't really want to eat there one la. sick of it alr. but still, me and cao shuang ate at there. then she bought foundation. then i couldn't find the pen that iris said la. hais. then after that went back to school. the security guard always close the back gate so early la. then had to walk all the way back la. wth. then angklung. ms asma or however you spell it ask the newcomers and sec ones to stand up and like play ourselves. then in the end had to sing. haha. all out of tune one la. then haiya. like normal angklung days la then after that went home. i realised something. angklung can be more boring than table tennis la. at least i get to exercise there. omg la. i'm getting fatter and fatter already. i need to exercise okay. haiya. i miss table tennis la. my bat is rotting in that small dark corner with alot of books piling on it. and i'm so jealous when i read lim yanyi's blog la. ): and i repeat. i'm getting fatter and fatter la. wahh. god help me la. i remember pig god saying that god will only help those who help themselves. haha! (:

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3/27/2006

3/27/2006 07:17:00 PM

hm. so today. first was lit then pe then music. music, iris didn't bring the vanguard sheet so we thought of sounds to replace the pictures. haha. grace is going to sing that part next week when we present. then after that recess. then mother tongue, maths. had class test. then science. changed to ms lee alr. so from now on, we had to walk from fourth floor to first floor then climb up to fourth floor again. great. anyway, then after that was maths again. had to do in groups. our group actually called pk one. but changed la. oh well. then i shouldn't go into details on what happened in maths. lalala. then after that school over. then went to eat first then went to the dnt workshop to do the car with cynthia. in the end it was kelvin who did everything. haha. should've asked him earlier. then after that went to compass with cynthia, grace and jieli. the sketching pen is still out of stock la. wtf. how many weeks alr ok. so hopefully cynthia gets to buy it at yishun there. then went mcdonalds sit down and talk. yes, sit at that place again la. then after that went home with jieli. (:

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3/24/2006

3/24/2006 06:56:00 PM

that stupid shit made me cry today! i hate her so much. but i can't write her name here, in case she sue me or something. humph.

today. first period maths. i'm scared of mr aw now. he's freaking worried la huh. then after that pe then chinese. then recess. then some lessons, blah blah. forgot alr. this is how boring the day went. then after school, went for cca. then went home. yup, boring la.

oh. tomorrow going for the ac thing. thick make up can. wtf. i'll be looking like a ghost la. with the costume and the super thick make up. oh well.

and one thing. i'm not confident for my results in midyear. i will slack. i'm just tired. i'm trying to stay hardworking, but somehow i can't. i know this is an important year but i can't handle it. studying so hard and results are like shit. haiya. i want holidays again.

things aren't what i've expected after all. i'm just like anyone else in your eyes. nothing special. to think cynthia said like as if you're that good. well, you're not. forget it. i have to pull myself together again. face the world ALONE, as always. just.. forget it. i'll be okay. facing difficulties alone, i'm used to it already.

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3/23/2006

3/23/2006 09:39:00 PM

wtf wtf wtf! my specs is broken la. stupid shit. so tomorrow i won't be able to see anything. okay, maybe a bit, it's not that worse. but haiya. okay nevermind. anyways, i haven't been posting for the past few days due to school. so tired can. ac rehersals almost everyday la. stupid. i mean what's the point, it's still the same. then today's rehersal i'm damn pissed off by that woman. stupid shit la you. okay. i'm supposed to post a happy post today because i'm posting sad posts for the previous one. but it seems like i'm posting an angry one. oh well.

anyway. recalling the past few days, there's one thing i can't believe i did it. at music period, i actually cried for you. i don't know why. tears just seem to flow down from my eyes. my heart is crushed. totally crushed. but i'm somehow resigned to it alr. how naive of me to think that some miracle would actually happen, that you would change your mind or something. it's all in the past. i mean i used to think that in the past. but not anymore. please. i just want to start life all over again. back to reality man.

oh, and another thing. Anne Frank. she's such a sad person. there's a private self and a public self. absolutely true. but who will actually know? everybody just assume everything they see on the outside, public self. like Anne's mother and Dussel and some other people. and she had to suffer in silence. sad right. haiya. i dunno what to say alr la. shall blog some other time then. (:

~~my heart is broken so many times, i'm already used to it.~~

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3/17/2006

3/17/2006 09:08:00 PM

disappointed. my only hope left can. maybe it's just best that i didn't see it. i'd live happier. oh well, maybe it's just best without it.

i'm been thinking a lot of things when i'm bathing. i don't know why but only then will i think of things. alot of decisions are made then.

i feel that i can't cope with my studies anymore after the first common test. i mean this is the first test that i really studied okay. at least 50%. never in my life did i studied that hard from the time i was born till now. not even psle. but still, my results are like shit. especially maths, such a disppointment.

and another thing. pillar of supports. do i need one? i don't know la, but there's this someone who motivates me to study. upon seeing that she can't get what she wants, just.. i feel sad for her. she's studying really hard now. oh well.

and i am so pissed off can. won't you just give and take. is it that hard. i really want to okay. you'll never understand la. at least everybody around has someone there when they need it. when i think you were the one, you just do something that changed my mind.

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3/16/2006

3/16/2006 11:09:00 PM

doing history homework now. summary. god, i don't even know how. like maybe some information would be lost like that. saw cynthia's hairstyle today. was like woah. wonder if she'll get booked la. haha. then cao shuang was like so dao. okay, nevermind. so went zhenzhi's house do project. jieli, cynthia, zhenzhi, iris, caoshuang and me were present. (: oh and do leo really suck that much? bryon suck la. he's not even good looking la. and i cannot stand it when people keep saying that he's good looking. he's not even okay looking. not even close to that. at least i think leo is better looking than him. and his acting is better than him. just, i'd rather let leo win than let that bryon win. so i shall vote for him during the finals. (:

i used to pity you. showed that i care. but i guess i shouldn't have done that. you don't even appreciate at all. i don't mind if you hate me or whatever shit, just be happy. at least there's someone out there whom you can share your problems with if you need. if you only knew there's someone.

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3/15/2006

3/15/2006 11:13:00 AM

some deadly virus has been passed to me. after finishing that yucky medicine that the doctor gave me, i'm still coughing la. oh well, hopefully i can get well before school reopen. (:

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3/14/2006

3/14/2006 12:07:00 PM

omg. yesterday night's campus superstar is so nice la. trust me. first was the girls. was quite disappointed with yun qing and was quite impressed with teresa although i don't like her la. but the judges gave her so little marks only la. wth. then clara and geraldine. omg. geraldine like nvr make-up like that, haha, face so pale like that la. then geraldine forgot her lyrics blah blah. then the guys. omg. just look at zhiyang's face la. like want to kill people like that. so fierce, like some sort of depression ppl like that. haha. then renfred. omfg. he sucks la. but i was thinking like he's going to sing the luo zhi xiang's zhen ming tian zi song to impress us or something. but yes, i was wrong la. he went to sing wu ke qun's song. he sucked in it la. and the judges actually gave him 30/40! my god can. then yuyang. omg! he's so cute la. last week he's alr so cute by saying that he likes home econs. this time, he's even cuter la. so funny can. then adriano. quite disappointed la, nvr do anything to surprise or anything. but overall, yesterday's show was funny! haha. (:

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oh and in the end, yun qing and yuyang was out la. stupid la. i seriously want renfred to be out. and geraldine i also don't like la.

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i want to cut my hair! if not school reopen i have to tie up alr. but i'm scared that the hair dresser would screw up la. haiya.

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3/13/2006

3/13/2006 06:49:00 PM

omg. hypocrites. i simply just can't stand them la. seriously. was reading some blogs and friendster profiles just now. and omg, i so feel like slapping them la can. so what la. walao.

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Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly

When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Yeah..
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know

You'll make it
You'll make it
Just don't go forsaking yourself
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall

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(:

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3/13/2006 12:27:00 PM

~~omg! i'm pissed off again! but is different person la. my god. look at yourself la, who is worse? say so much. okay, fine. whatever. shall blog later i guess.~~

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3/13/2006 11:12:00 AM

FUCK. early in the morning made me say this word. someone just simply pissed me off. and i'm still talking to her now. i'm tolerating can. money is all she can think of la. want me to give her money for her birthday present. i mean like what's the point can. keep bugging me for money for her to shop la. shop shop shop. no money then don't shop la. i mean i like to shop la, but i dont keep asking for money can. got money then buy, no money don't buy. simple. yes, i'm venting my anger now. and it does make me feel better. (:

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3/11/2006

3/11/2006 12:25:00 PM

ST. HELEN ROCKS. although we didn't win. at least we improved alot from last year. (:

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3/09/2006

3/09/2006 09:38:00 PM

today. in the morning cme. then dnt. mrs goh just simply flipped through la. to think we treated it so seriously. cynthia still came back to school to give me the information okay. so touched. so responsible la. then after that she went home. if it was me, i would not come to school one la. seriously. then lit, and recess. chinese then geog. siao la give so much homework for what. it's only one week holiday. not one month or something can. but still, i like geography. so cute. haha. then english, took photos with thai ppl. then mrs koh say can take out phone to take then the ppl outside was like looking. haha. then after that cd period. had a test. i got 20. (: although failed la but i think it's not bad alr right? haha. i need one mark more for science and history la! fuck la. really fuck. make my results appear bad for what. then i got b4 for maths when everybody else got like a2 a1 la. humph. oh well. then after that rushed to rivervale mall to eat kfc. cao shuang la, siao one. rush me for what, i know ac rehersal is going to start late one, then so early go back also no use. then went back to school. then sitted at the side to watch the awardies take their prizes. then cao shuang made me look so bian tai la. i didn't say until so bian tai one can. and she's not my cousin. and she's going to tell rest of the clique what i've said today. wtf. ppl, i'm innocent okay, innocent.yar, then ac rehersal finish went home. (: tomorrow is sports day. omg. i don't want st. helen to lose can. at least get a third, not fourth please. but i will still support st. helen la, because after all it's still my house what. but tomorrow shall be fun haha. (:

oh and i still love siying. (:

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3/08/2006

3/08/2006 10:13:00 PM

doing dnt project now. tomorrow mrs goh want to see the file, so yar, rushing through. and my printer is running out of ink already, haiya. finding information on wheels now cause i find out that hers didn't write down the source for the wheels la, damn it.

okay. today was okay la. first had maths. then chinese. belinda they all teach. then english and recess. then maths again. two periods. then as usual, i wasn't very clear of what to do, then i raise my hand and wait for the teacher to come. haiya, i shouldn't have done that, i was like so rude can. hope he doesn't remember or something la. then after that was english again, mrs koh wasn't there so monitresses gave out our coupons for sports day. then after that history. overall it was a boring day.

after school, was suppose to stay back for ac rehersal, but wasn't feeling well, so after done dnt project at compass with cynthia oh who came after school, went home. then me and cynthia had to search for places to do. first library, so packed up. and the food was like so little and ex la. waste money. then went delifrance as she want to eat something related to chocolate cause her pillar of support suggests chocolate. so she bought that one slice of cake which cost four dollar plus la. then i wanted to eat the sandwich thing. then after we do finish the project, zhen zhi wanted to meet up at compass, so she called when we were at the toilet. luckily i nvr went in la. then went mcdonalds as she wanted to eat then went mini toons to buy present for dawn. then went home.

i love siying! (:

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3/05/2006

3/05/2006 11:42:00 AM

hm. came to update. (:

FRIDAY.
shouldn't have came to school. bad day. actually came for dnt. regretted. just 2 periods only. then dnt i think acted too rashly. the workpiece turn out to be not very nice though. cause out of time alr then anyhow do first.
SATURDAY.
sick. keep sneezing.. haiya. then aircon man came early in the morning. then daddy bought fried chicken for dinner and 1.5 litre coke. humph, cannot eat or drink la. then in the end he cook noodles for me to eat while they eat fried chicken in front of me. ):
SUNDAY.
still early. so nothing to update. should be quite boring.

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3/02/2006

3/02/2006 09:46:00 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHEN ZHI! (:
i'm like writing this alot of times alr la. but oh wells. surprised you, hope you like it! (:

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today mrs goh let us know our dnt marks. i got 17/25. although not say like good but at least win somebody by one mark. haha. then later geography got 35/40. again, won the same person by one mark. yay. but someone screamed and cried. siao la i think. it's only higher by 1/2 a mark, need to be so happy and cry anot. i cannot stand her can.

i'm going to hang in there okay, cynthia. all because of the dnt thing. we only sprayed the can only. but still must see la, whether i got fever tomorrow anot. and i'm not going to go for pe and ac rehersal tomorrow, i can really die.

oh wells, till then! (:

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